BehindThe Mask..

   Wearing makeup is a huge deal to me.. Not because I think I'm ugly, or think I am only pretty with makeup on. But because I LOVE to wear makeup.. I started doing my makeup when I was fourteen. My "popular" friend in middle school came over one day to help me get ready for a coir concert and showed me how to do my makeup. She showed me a few basics: mascara, eye shadow, eyeliner and lip gloss. For some reason it caught my attention more than anything else. I started wearing makeup more regularly and it shortly became a daily process. I don't remember my exact thoughts on why I was wearing makeup at that point. Maybe because I felt like a girl and pretty for once. Maybe because it gave me something to do and take pride in; a hobby of sorts. Or maybe because my "popular" friend did, I wanted to also.. Whatever the reason, it continued for the next 6 years.

   Over the past 6 years I have taught myself many different types of makeup and techniques. Now, I'm no beautician, but I've learned a lot in the past 6 years. A lot of trial and error. Mostly error, Haha. Not only trial and error in styles of makeup (discovering how awesome contouring is and realizing how bad full blue eye shadow lids look are two examples) but also trial and error in products and brands. I now have a collection of my favorite products that I use on a daily basis.

   Recently I went one whole week without any makeup at all. It was very difficult for me. Throughout this week I realized three reasons why I wear makeup. One, It is really the only thing I do regularly besides vital things (showering, sleeping, eating). It is the only hobby or pastime I have at the moment. Two, I love the way I look with makeup. It makes me feel confident, unique and bold (Dark eyes and Bright Red lips). And Three, I like the attention. I love myself. Most people call it vanity but I have spent the last five years learning to love myself and not hate what I see in the mirror. Makeup doesn't make me love myself more, but when I get complements it boosts my self confidence. not just in my looks, but in my talent.


Life is an adventure and I'm excited to see what tomorrow brings!!

Bacoming a Better Me...

   I have tried on and off for the last few years to better myself in many ways.. The biggest one has been my health; eating right, exercising and having healthy habits. I say on and off because I go from being really good about the foods I eat, exercising and taking care of myself to "forgetting" or just straight up being lazy and not caring. I want to work on these more in the future, even more than I have before.
  
   I have always viewed my life as pretty good. Besides the fact that I have dealt with quite a few  tragedies and bad situations, it could be worse; and I am always grateful it isn't. I want to be happier and have my good mood and attitude show through me and lighten up other peoples days! I know that moods can be contagious, even negative ones. I want to be the reason someone smiles today. In order to do that I need to first be happy in my own life. Now, I'm not saying I need to be 100% happy nor may I ever be 100% happy with my life and every situation. But I believe that a lot of your life and how happy you are is based on how you react to your situations. I try to choose to be happy and optimistic about my situations, even crappy ones.

   Honestly, I haven't lately. I can feel and see how being negative towards my situations is causing me stress and difficulty functioning properly on a daily basis.. I am working hard to change my reaction to my situations. But even more so, I am working on having a positive outlook on life. I am starting new hobbies and activities that make me happy and in a good mood as well as being grateful for the little things. It can be hard sometimes to see the good instead of the bad but, I am a work in progress.


Life is an adventure and I'm excited to see what tomorrow brings!!